Buck Moon’s Rising and the Inspiration behind “Indigo Night”

Buck Wimberly was born during a full “Buck Moon”, hence the musical moniker.

Some songs come from inspiration.
This one came from finally facing myself.

Welcome to my first post on BuckMoonMusic.com. It felt right to begin by sharing the story behind “Indigo Night.”

A couple of years ago, I hit a point where I had to ask myself a hard question:
Why am I still carrying anxiety and depression when, on the surface, my life looks full?

I have the partner I dreamed of, amazing kids, and a career I built from the ground up. But underneath all of that, there were parts of my story I had never really faced.

Growing up gay in Texas in a Southern Baptist environment left me with confusion, shame, and a lot of self-rejection. Being bullied stuck with me. Divorcing my wife — who was also my best friend — and stepping away from a church community that couldn’t understand me was heartbreaking. And losing a former partner … someone I had built a life with … left a kind of grief that doesn’t just disappear.

The truth is, I got really good at moving forward without slowing down enough to feel any of it.

There was always something to focus on — a business, responsibilities, people I love. And for a long time, staying busy felt like strength. But eventually, it started to feel like avoidance.

In 2022, I decided to stop bypassing it all and start doing the deeper work. That path led me into exploring plant-based and psychedelic therapies — modalities that are now being studied for their role in healing trauma and depression.

That exploration eventually brought me to a rites of passage retreat in the fall of 2023. It was a week rooted in ancient ritual, centered around the elements — air, fire, earth, and water. I won’t go into detail out of respect for the experience, but I will say this: it pushed me further than I had ever been pushed — mentally, physically, and spiritually.

At one point, these words came through:

“I walked through the fire

I buried a part of me in the earth

And I saw myself sinking

down into the water...it's my rebirth.”

It was emotional. Confronting. And grounding in a way I didn’t expect. I had to learn how to be still … and actually feel what I had spent years avoiding.

The retreat ended with an ayahuasca ceremony that opened something even deeper. It brought forward truths about my past— and showed me what I was ready to let go of. Integration didn’t happen overnight. It took time, and it’s still unfolding. But something shifted. I started learning how to live more in the present, instead of carrying everything with me.

“I'm shedding my demons

They're finally releasing and giving up their fight

A new me is rising

after a journey through the indigo night”

While I’ve written music for years, “Indigo Night” is the first song I’ve completed and released. It’s a reflection of that experience —a kind of sonic journal I can return to.

Looking back, I can see how much that chapter changed me. The song became a way to capture it — something that reminds me of what I moved through, and who I was becoming.

And at the end of the day, this is what I keep coming back to:

I make music for myself first.

It’s how I process, reflect, and tell the truth about my life.

But if something in this resonates with you — if you’re carrying things you haven’t had time to face yet — just know you’re not alone in that.

Thanks for being here and taking the time to listen.

“Indigo Night” is available on Spotify, Apple Music, and most major platforms.